distractions...

I suddenly had a flash of what my summer will mostly consist of. I will be spending endless hours watching asian dramas. [*gasp] This is it. [*gulp] I have become a drama freak. It's true. It's my drug and I have become a fiend for it. But, why asian dramas you ask? I enjoy watching dramas in a different language because it's fun to learn new languages. Okay, so I might also be reading a lot this summer too. [Sue me =P] Well, I honestly don't really care for porn, like some of my friends seem to be fond of. To put it simply, it's an escape. For a few hours, I forget about the insecurities I have about myself. I don't have to think about the stress I am or will be under soon enough. I don't have to concentrate on my life. I can watch someone else worry about their insecurities. I can empathize with their feelings about love, about life. I can relate to similar situations in my life. But most of all, [and this part is kind of sad] I can live vicariously through the characters on the screen/in the pages. I am angry when bad things happen to good characters. I am excited when characters are infatuated. And I get goosebumps when characters fall in love and portray it so well my heart hurts from the envy. There's something about good-looking people and the things they go through in their lives that just ensnares me and holds me captive, as if I have no choice. Obviously, I'm aware that I do. I just choose to ignore it. =) That aside, as soon as it ends, I'm reminded that it was just a momentary distraction to enable me to procrastinate from coming back to reality. Not that reality is bad at all. Just sometimes, I would prefer to immerse myself in fictional stories about characters who bear similarities to me, but have experienced worse. This way, when I do have to come back from my Neverland, I am also reminded that things could be much worse. Also, I come to be grateful that I am not in those situations which some of the characters I read about get into. That's the great thing about fictional stories. I get to live through these characters without having to experience what they do. But hey, I'm not sadistic. I leave that to Justin. =P [*sigh] Yup, I'm addicted. But it's a hell of a lot better than drugs. Trust me. Although, I do confess to another addiction. It's just, this other addiction is one I'm going to be stuck with for a while. I don't need drug-induced hallucinations when I have him. He's all I need.

Hey, look over there,
It's a distraction!
Just kidding! =P